[From Lauris Shepherd, one of our Elders]
We tend to have “bi-polar” responses to the infinite-personal God. On one hand we feel we are too insignificant and our needs too puny for an infinite God to bother Himself with our cares. On the other hand, a personal God who knows my thoughts and the words I’m going to say even before I say them is scary. We don’t like a God who is so close and knows us so well and a Deity we can’t control. We’re much more comfortable with a god we can invite into our daily living as we choose and yet retain ‘veto power’ on the surrender part.
No wonder Jesus said we are to become like little children. A child is undaunted by those things when approaching a loving parent. He blurts out what he’s thinking and what he wants just as he is, believing his parent can and will do what is best.
Ps. 139:4-6 4 Even before there is a word on my tongue, Behold, O LORD, You know it all. 5 You have enclosed me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. 6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is too high, I cannot attain to it.
Don’t over-spiritualize. You can be real with God. “When we stop being ourselves with God, we are no longer in real conversation with God.” Miller
Prayer is a balance of freely, yet humbly, expressing our desires (being real) in an attitude of surrender (wanting what God wants, confident we can fully trust Him).